Right so i have sixteen days till i see my boyfriend. I am not being all like ahh i am a women and therefore am nothing but a visual and i must look my best for my man and whatnot, i am just being insecure and feeling horribly uncomfortable about how fat i am currently. So i need to stop screwing up, and stay on track every single day, no slip ups whatsoever. I figure that there will be hardly any difference within two weeks, the most i have ever lost in that time period is 5 lbs :/ so, i am still gonna be a hefalump, but I have to at least try otherwise i’ll just be getting bigger and bigger. It’s weird, the fact that i am fat is the thing that demotivates me the most, just because i have gained so much i feel like it is hopeless. But i know i have to suck it up and do it. I just wish I could feel like two weeks would actually make a difference.